Am I Walking Away, or Am I Standing Still?
The question of walking away from this startup if I do not reach my deadlines I set isn’t one I can answer. It’s not as simple as exhausting every option or needing a fresh start. It’s deeper, more complex, and riddled with emotions that refuse to fit into a category.
Am I Walking Away?
There are moments when I am. Moments when I know I’ve done everything in my power, pushed every boundary, and hit every wall. But then, there are moments when I question myself—did I exhaust every viable option? Or am I letting the weight of exhaustion blur my judgment?
This paradox keeps circling back, pulling me into a loop of reflection. Am I stuck because I’m afraid of letting go, or because there’s still something left to fight for?
The Weight of Unanswered Questions
I’ve asked myself countless times: What’s holding me back? Why do I feel like I’m floating in the same place, caught in a cycle that keeps coming round and round?
No answer ever feels complete. No single thought can encapsulate the feelings that surge through me.
There’s a constant tension between staying and leaving, between resilience and release.
And the truth is, I don’t have real answers—fragments of thoughts, emotions, and moments of clarity that fade as quick as they come.
What This Teaches Me
Even in the absence of clear answers, this experience has taught me something invaluable: it’s okay not to know.
Not every decision comes with certainty. Sometimes, it’s about sitting with the discomfort, letting the questions linger, and trusting that clarity will emerge when it’s ready.
Moving Forward, Even in Uncertainty
Whether I stay or walk away, one thing is certain: I can’t stand still. Floating in place, caught in indecision, is more draining than either path.
The only way forward is to act, to try, to push one more time—or to step back with grace, knowing I gave it everything I could.
There’s no roadmap for moments like this. No checklist or strategy that guarantees the right decision.
But what I do know is that staying true to myself—my vision, my values, and my purpose—will guide me.
Whether that means continuing this journey or starting a new one. I’ll move forward with the conviction that comes from knowing I gave my all, even when the answers weren’t clear.
And maybe, just maybe, that’s all that matters. Only time will tell what’s ahead.